I hate, hate, hate how my body looks right now. I know I've gained the appropriate amount of weight, and I know my shape was bound to change. I just kind of hoped it would be all at one time? Like I'd go from being flat-stomached to having a fully formed baby bump overnight? That is not how it works. No, no. I just look a little fatter than normal, like maybe I had a really big breakfast or something. I put on my normal shirts and think, "Ugh. My uterus is showing." Fortunately, I do have three maternity shirts that fit well enough to disguise everything, but I do get tired of those same three outfits. My parents bought me a few others, but they are definitely meant for later: fitted tops with bands around my ribcage and then a hundred yards of fabric--like I'm hosting the circus in the shade of my breasts. They'll be great in a month or so (the shirts, not my breasts), and I don't mean to sound ungrateful. My parents really are amazing. But what am I supposed to wear TODAY? Do I go with a normal shirt and look fat? Or do I go with a maternity shirt and look fat?
This picture husband-approved.
In other news, I woke up this morning to a completely lopsided stomach. Our apple-sized baby had apparently curled up one side of my uterus, which made the right side of my lower stomach stick out more. I can't feel it move yet (I don't think...), so this was an oddly nice morning surprise. The logical part of my brain says that this is completely WEIRD, and it's not wrong, but the emotional side is all, "Eee! That's my baby! Awwwww!"
I think you're already stupid gorgeous, Catherine, and now you're just going to develop some impossibly glowy type of gorgeousness that's not fair.
ReplyDelete(Also, this is Mb, if you couldn't guess. I stalk you, but since my blog that I created months and months ago has yet to have an entry or a profile, I thought you should know what voyeur was creepin' you out.)
Ha! I got to "I think you're already stupid" and turned into an internet ninja, ready to drop some Judo on a stranger. (Which really means I almost started crying, on account of the hormones.) And then I kept reading and felt dumb. Thanks, MB! I wouldn't mind some glow. See you on Wednesday?
ReplyDeleteyou might be able to feel the baby already. it feels like gas bubbles, like the rumbling when you've had too much fiber, ha! I didn't feel Ethan until i was about 25 weeks or so, but many women your size can feel the movement earlier. drink some orange juice or some sprite and lay down on the bed, you might feel it then. --Lauren
ReplyDeleteI'll have to give that a try! I'm looking forward to feeling it, but I want to be certain. I am rumble-y all the time, but I'm cautious about confusing digestion with baby movement. I'd hate to get all sentimental over a gas bubble, you know?
ReplyDeleteyeah. i feel you.
ReplyDeleteoh, btw. there's a consignment boutique over by 15th street diner called Deja Kids that sells maternity clothes. You might find something there that works. I hated buying maternity clothes because the sizes were all hit-or-miss and the clothes are all really cheaply made and over-priced. Buying used maternity makes sense, since you're only wearing it for about 9 months.
What a great blog, Catherine! And you look gorgeous!! Won't it be wonderful to teach "A Modest Proposal" while visibly pregnant??? Those poor, poor students won't understand the satire, but you (and baby Merritt) will! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks, Cathy! I know the dirty poetry may get a bit awkward, but I hadn't thought about "A Modest Proposal" yet. That will be fun! They're already so scared of hurting my feelings or making me angry. :)
ReplyDeleteAnd thanks for the tip, Lauren. I'll definitely check that out.
I am always sentimental about gas bubbles. Also, the first time I read _Modest Proposal_, my teacher was pregnant. It was awkward. Also also, you're such a MILF, which is really what MB was saying, I think.
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